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Friday, May 13, 2005

hey girls, I'm leaving this xanga

my new one is http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=So_Lost_Within

please come and subscribe!!


Thursday, May 12, 2005

http://www.petatv.com/tvpopup/Prefs.asp?video=mym2002

choose your things, and then WATCH...it will scare you away from animal products...each and every one...CHEESE...MILK...ICE CREAM...everything! ahhh


I'm so incredibly sick of hiding how I feel...I just want to become numb. I hate pretending...especially when I'm pretending to be happy. My whole world has crashed down in front of my eyes and I'm too much in shock to know what to do. I thought I heard my mom yelling for me last night...I think I'm losing my mind...or I just want so badly for things to get back to normal..which they never will. My brother is gone, my other brother and his fiance are having a baby in a week, my mom is gone, my dad and I are always upset...I don't know what to do..I don't know anything anymore. This feeling of homesickness won't go away...


Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Went to school? Friday

Took a test? Friday

Studied for something? three years ago (7th grade)

Took a shower? Sunday

Read a book? uhhh I don't know

Ate something? at three

Drank something? at three

Used the computer besides now? Umm, yesterday?

Wrote a report? wrote one on Taoism on Sunday

Did homework? Sunday

Played a board game? Candy Land liiiiike a while ago

Went outside? yesterday

Hung out with someone? Sunday

Went to the mall? don't even remember

Went to the movies? Last thing I saw in the theatre was Ring Two

Got dressed? SUNDAY! hahahah

Wore a bathing suit? Spring Break (late March)

Swam in the pool? Last Summer

Went to an amusement park? hmm I don't know, probably went to Kings Island last summer

Cussed? Sometime today, not exactly sure when.

Got in trouble? I've never gotten in trouble...

Said you were sorry? Today.

Told someone you loved them? Today.

Gave someone a hug? Today.

Been really excited? Today.

Talked to someone online? Now.

Talked to someone in person? like a minute ago

Gone to the beach? Spring Break

Watched TV? Now.

Watched a rented movie? Saturday.

Bought something for yourself? bought a Reds hat last week

Bought something for someone else? something for Mike sometime


Friday, May 06, 2005

thank you thank you thank you for all of your lovely comments! Each and every one of them made me smile! You girls are too sweet!

Jules and I are negative calorie (don't believe in them, but oh well!) fasting until our birthdays...hers is June 14th and mine is June 17th...and our rewards: a SMALL slice of birthday cake. RULES: first time we fuck up: purge it all and work out like mad //// second time: WE HAVE TO TELL SOMEONE ABOUT OUR ANA ahhh //// if someone makes us eat, it's not our fault, we just have to purge.

Intake: panera: diet pepsi/ fruit cup // diet coke // water // pickles

day one: good!!!!

THE REDS ARE FUCKING ARE KILLING MEEEEEEEE 13-6 tonightttt

well, I'm babysitting from 9:30am-9:00pm tomorrow...money money money...monaaaaay

I love you all tons



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